Housekeeping! You want me fluff pillow!

Hello, My name is Denise and it has been way too long since I cleaned a toilet, sink, tub, or shower!

I admit, I am a terrible house cleaner.

I have always been bad at it.

My dad used to take pictures of my messy bedroom to show my children one day.

I used to tell my mom that it would be different when I was an adult.

I would want to keep my very own house clean.

Yeah right!

I don't spend a lot of time in the bathroom so this picture is somewhat true.

Don't look for too long and you won't see that thing growing in the corner of the shower.

Awe yes, that's why I don't clean like I should.

I'm out living my life, changing the world!

Uh huh!

photos from Pinterest

Come on, you know this one is a little bit true.

I'm guilty of thinking it.

Justifying my disgusting habits of non-cleaning.

I am good at putting things away.

Things stack up and then I find a home for them.

I can make my downstairs looks clean.

But please don't swipe a white glove across anything or

God forbid pull back the downstairs shower curtain that's kept closed when friends come over.

For this would expose my faults.

Tonight I couldn't take it any longer.

I kept hoping that things would miraculously clean up.

Mary Poppins would snap her finger and little soldiers would clean up.

Ummm, not so much.

Tonight I went for it.

Gloves on.

Master bathroom full assault.

The whole time sweat is dripping and I'm angry at myself for not staying on top of it.

If I would just clean up every day/week.

Just like I tell Janell to do with her clothes.

But, yeah, not so much.

I started scrubbing.  

Every part needs to get cleaned.

I can't stop.

I become obsessed.

I'm frustrated because the shower is out of control.

It's gonna need the big guns for a complete clean.

Why do I let it get like this?

Cleaning is not the only area I do this in my life.

I'm like this with my relationship with God.

I know what I should be doing and how I should be living.
I know what is right and I do these things.

My life looks cleaned and organized.

I've thriving in stepping out of my comfort zone to develop relationships with other people.

But in some areas I keep the lights off.

The curtain is closed hiding what it is going on.

However, I keep plugging away until finally I can't take it anymore.

Things are all out of whack.

I know what I need to do to fix this.

I need to clean my heart daily with His word.

Study it so it is a part of me.

Pray daily.

Do this before the ick has a chance to settle in.

To be honest, in my life right now the ick is creeping in.

Anxiety is rearing it's ugly head.

 (Hello state testing and a misguided education system)

Doubt wedges itself into my thoughts.

(Am I where God wants me to be?  Can I do something with these new passions I have?)

I've been relying on myself to get passed it.

Well, we all know that at some point that just ain't gonna cut it.

I'm in that place right now.

It's time to started scrubbing and polishing myself.

Allow God to do what He is so patiently waiting for me to let Him do.

I really hope that I'm not alone in this.

Do you feel the ick creep in when you haven't been spending time with the Lord?

What are some special things you do to spend time with God?

Finding the Blessings,
Denise