Modern Medicine

Today I am thankful for modern medicine.

I am thankful that the anxiety and depression I suffer from can be treated with medicine.

I know that there are many that feel that one should be able to pray and rely on 

God to take care of anxiety and depression.

After all the Bible does say:

"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."

1 Peter 5:7

So many nights I pray, "Please, take this anxiety away!"  

I beg and plead and earnestly cast my cares upon Him who is strong enough to carry them.

And in my heart I know that He is taking care of me and carrying me through.

However, my mind and body do not agree with what my heart knows.

You can read one of my posts from earlier in the year where 

I share about coming to the realization that I needed some medical intervention.

Well, it's a stressful season for me.  

All you teachers reading this will know, it's report card time.

On the surface I don't feel anxious about it.  

I know what I have to do.

But deep down my mind is reeling with the list of things that have to get done.

Papers graded, reports ran, grades given, comments made, conferences scheduled.

And that's just my day job.

I try not to bring work home so that I'm available to my husband and children.

Then it's mounds of laundry, sinks full of dishes, homework to finish, Oh my!

This week I have found those anxiety symptoms creeping back in.

They hit in the evening.

My chest starts to feel tight.

The top of my back hurts.

My brain won't shut off.

I tell myself:

"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."
1 Peter 5:7

I do, I cast my cares upon Him.

Tonight, I am thankful that I am a child of a God big enough to take this burden.

I am also thankful that he instilled wisdom and knowledge in people to make discoveries in the field of medicine that can help people who suffer with anxiety and depression that go beyond just a feeling and manifests in physical forms.

I'm thankful that I don't have to suffer in silence and that I can be honest with how anxiety affects me.

Thankful that I can find the blessings in my life,

Like these two that bring me joy,

Denise